Renascimento

É sábado e encontro-me com vontade de começar uma semana nova
Quem diz semana, diz mês ou hipoteticamente vida
Não bebi ontem mas sei que hoje não conseguirei resistir-me
Sempre houve certas loucuras que nunca me dificultaram decidir-me
Talvez por isso não esteja cansado e absurdamente calmo
Talvez por isso me sinta lúcido e com vontade de esmagar o mundo
Todos os dias travo duras batalhas pelo que sinto

pelos outros
Todos os dias me perco em estranhos duelos que travo comigo
Quem são esses outros e porque lhes dei o direito de entrar?
Quem sou esse eu que julga como se não soubesse o que é errar?
Que espécie de pai tento ser quando tão jovem sou?
Que espécie de filho fui eu que tomou os seus exemplos para ser tudo o que nunca foram?
Não sei o que procuro nem compreendo o que já encontrei Absorto no orgulho de transparecer o meu intimo 
Também sei que não nego a dor e a mágoa porque são como sorrir
São apenas merdas da vida que existem para nos fazer sentir!

By Darko

Easy to hurt

Once again the strong man you knew is gone

For some sort of lie the world told us to believe in
'Cause love is cruel, 'cause love is wrong, 'cause love does not exist
Why would I insist in being part of something as wicked as this

Seeking happiness means nothing at all if it depends on someone else
Expectations are the most brilliant way of making us give up dreaming
'Cause I'm a fo

ol and just a tool for you to execute your evil plan
Damn, I thought I was smarter than that

I'm just the way I always say you should never be
I used to watch every Disney romance just like you
I should've known that all that crap would kill the best of me
'cause love is just a silly ghost we'd like to see

Now and then I tend to forget about myself
Even though everybody knows I'm really hard to break down
'Cause that's a lie, I'll never know why I do like everybody else
I meet someone and paint it ten thousand times better than it really is

And now the silence and your absence make living sound pointless
You know how much I hate to feel like I can't deal with things
'Cause I like to think I'm mature but my heart is pure though I'm temperamental
Hopelessly sentimental and actually easy to hurt

I'm just the way I always say you should never be
I used to watch every Disney romance just like you
I should've known that all that crap would kill the best of me
'cause love is just a silly ghost we'd like to see

By Darko

Come to dust

In the dark I ask for a wish

And I remeber everything I miss

Nothing stays the same

Though nobody changed

And I'm still here...

So I wonder why we still have to love each other?

Am not sure that I really do...

How can I find happiness in a place

where there's you?

I need home when home's a place love is true

I need God when God's something I believe in

I need myself when I'm someone I can trust

Merry Christmas when all my dreams come to dust

There's a light burning in my heart

It always tells me there's somewhere new to start

I have to grab my stuff and keep walking

where I feel safe...

All these kids..I love how they smile

It makes me sad to know I was like them for a while

I won't ever bear myself to let them get hurt

like I was...

I need home when home's a place love is true

I need God when God's something I believe in

I need myself when I'm someone I can trust

Merry Christmas when all my dreams come to dust

I need time when time heals everything you said

Every single word still echoes in my head

I need distance when being near only makes me sad...

And it's sick that I am about to burst

Merry Christmas when my silly dreams come to dust...

By Darko

Please don't

Every day I feel like I'll never forgive myself

for letting you in
Every wall in this room is poisoned by those things we did
what a cruel mistake
Sadly it's too late to forget about it

Well I can surely find some other way
but I can't just forbid your existence
Every corner of this boring town is danger zone for me
How can I hide
Without leaving the meaning of my life?

If you wanna tell me something
Don't
If you wanna try to make things work
please don't
I need my own fresh air
Knowing you'll never dare to be a part of it
So don't try to make me incomplete

Every night I feel this room's not warm enough
It's easier to blame the world than start figuring out why
Everytime I want to let myself lay in the dark
I force myself not to be a reflection
 of your worthless life

Well I can surely watch some tv
Sunday movies always remeber me about us
Every soundtrack of this year has some sort of story we could talk about
Oh I wish those artists could die
So I won't ever have to lie

If you wanna tell me something
Don't
If you wanna try to make things work
please don't
I need my own fresh air
Knowing you'll never dare to be a part of it
So don't try to make me incomplete

There are billions of people in this world
some of them might even dream about this sort of dependency
Well, that's not who I am
There are so many places you can go
Some of them I'm sure I'll never know
And we could stop feeding this sick chase
'cause love's not what I get from your embrace...

So If you wanna tell me something
Don't
If you wanna try to make things work
please don't
I need my own fresh air
Knowing you'll never dare to be a part of it
So don't try to make me incomplete
So stop making me incomplete

By Darko

So

All this mess around bothers me no more

and looking like I don't care just makes me feel gorgeous

Why the hell should I try to understand what's going on

if that doesn't really fix my broken heart

You used to say I should get some rest

to realize the sky never been this bright

But who the fuck told you my lazy eyes

want to feel invaded by it's claustrophobic light

I'll keep myself in the dark

playing with these shadows as they were my only friends

Are they?

I better never listen what you have to say...

How did I dare to think about the future

When I know it will never be like it was yesterday

I'm sorry if I got stuck in some other day

where I was happy in some stupid way

Now I'm sure that nothing is familiar

And it's quite ridiculous to say that I'm not surprised

That's why I always insisted I wouldn't like to grow this older

'cause changes always meant breaking my heart

So 

I'll keep myself in the dark

playing with these shadows as they were my only friends

Are they?

I better never listen what you have to say...

And yes, I might be pushing myself hard

I'm obssessed in trying to learn how to forgive

'cause I believe it will lead me to the awnser

for where's the one I really need to find...

By Darko

Excertos de não ser

Não importa não haver mais nada

que não seja o horizonte e as tuas mãos frias

já não espero por coisas bonitas

que se atrasam sempre no vazio das horas

Não vou pedir rigorosamente mais nada

até porque nada me parece mais do que suficiente

para que me retire airoso e de sorriso estampado

num olhar que sem calor se atreve a brilhar

Não vai haver certo nem errado

nem medo do que não nos pode assustar

está na hora de respirar fundo

e perceber que não há mais nada nem aquilo que deixar

Não irei mais achar que é tarde

o tempo jamais fez diferença afinal

Agora será sempre para sempre

e é aqui que te vou pedir para que fiques

Não preciso de coisas sem valor

quando não existe rico ou pobre

só estamos nós e o que nem sequer temos

e todas as coisas que agarramos sem sequer lhes mexer

Não acho que alguma vez me vá arrepender

até porque dexei de sequer me preocupar

É o momento de respeitar a minha pele

e ser eu por um segundo melhor

Não te magoes ou sequer insistas

vale o que vale dizer coisas à toa

e é tão bom que me aconchega o espaço

em que deixei sozinho quem outrora fui

Não digo não, nem sei dizer sim

Perdi o norte e guardo as coisas para mim

Então escrevo histórias de quem não conheço

ou das tantas pessoas que abandonei sem razão

Não me despeço porque não interessa

embora guarde coisas sem sentido

foi assim que me fiz e talvez peça desculpa

por demorar tanto a perceber quem serei

By Darko

Shoes

I've been sleeping a lot lately

And the food is not tasting as usual

the sky is blinding and it confuses my head

and I'm sad and broke and fat

Everyone's face is getting darker

and their eyes show no regrets

and they're fake and they're cuel and empty

and I'm jealous I'm fucking different

Then I look at my shoes

how they shine and how they're strong

and how they walk me away

everytime I don't know what to say

I've been drinking a lot lately

and being high doesn't give me a clue

even cigarettes taste like shit

and they're not enough to make me hear you

Everyone seems to be a stranger

and I'm always in the wrong place

I don't like my face, I don't like my friends

If I really have one of those

Then I look at my shoes
And I'm watching this movie
'cause it has nothing fun to see
It looks like the life of everyone
who walks around me

It's time to get going
I am not a part of this
I look at my shoes
My shoes once smiled and said to me
get the hell out of here

how they shine and how they're strong
and how they walk me away
everytime I don't know what to say
Am I that wrong?
Am I that wrong?
My shoes are not

how they shine and how they're strong

and how they walk me away

everytime I don't know what to say

By Darko

Acredito ser quem devo

Hoje foi apenas mais um dia
como são quase todos os dias

Não gosto de sair de casa
nem quero conhecer ninguém
nunca fui de grandes aventuras
apenas quero reinar este meu reino sem trono

Estou cansado de todos
e não sei reconhecer as pessoas
como posso esperar alguma coisa dos outros
se até eu me consigo desiludir

Os cigarros matam o tempo
e o sexo pára o relógio
para que amanhã nada se atreva a mudar
e eu continue a desperdiçar-me

Fui eu que escolhi o que me rodeia
certo de não ser o melhor
apenas o que é menos mau
quando não me encontro em nenhum de vós

Sei bem não ser especial
a diferença nunca foi um objectivo
eu só quis mudar o mundo
talvez esteja apenas errado

Duvido haver plateia que me entenda
quando eu próprio estou incerto
falo uma língua que é minha
estou só e orgulho-me disso

Não há regras nem princípios
apenas eu neste sítio desarrumado
Talvez me culpe para sempre
de nunca ter aprendido a fugir

Sou humano e também me distraio
saibam que me odeio todos os dias por isso

Talvez fosse feliz a ditar
a exigir-vos que fossem melhores
ou talvez nunca venha a pertencer aqui
ainda acredito ser quem devo.

By Darko

Out of luck

You'll never imagine how much I feel scared

I always wanted to grow faster than everyone

Things have been so crazy lately

I barely can find a reason to feel ok

I was so damn sure about my future

and I believed so hard in my choices

That things kind of happened quickly

Will I start to regret that everyday?

I'm only twenty three

nobody's running after me

I guess everyone was right

I'm not ready for this fight

I forgot how to be a child

even though my heart is wild

I'm starting to give up

I guess I just went out of luck

Nothing's different than it was before

I have to admit I'm the one who's changed

I spent my youth wanting to push myself harder

Now I miss watching cartoons in mum's chest

I demanded for my freedom and I imposed my will

I'm kind of fucked up 'cause I don't want to pay the bill

We can't have the best of everything at the same time

I'm too smart to lose a thing and that will always break my heart

I'm only twenty three

nobody's running after me

I guess everyone was right

I'm not ready for this fight

I forgot how to be a child

even though my heart is wild

I'm starting to give up

I guess I just went out of luck

my friends always have a cooler friend

daddy knows he'll never understand

and sometimes I really wish to leave this town

to pretend I'm lonely 'cause you're not around

I'm sorry to destroy your dreams

but nothing's easy as it seems

I'm only twenty three

nobody's running after me

I guess everyone was right

I'm not ready for this fight

I forgot how to be a child

even though my heart is wild

I'm starting to give up

I guess I just went out of luck

by Darko