We're not

I'm deeply sorry I believed in doing something better
It kinda looked cool being true to myself for a day or two
I thought smiling a lot would make it look easier
It felt great to mislead my fate but it didn't work at all

It's time to learn I'm just like all of you
We're meant to think we're something special when we're not
I always loved to say I see things in a positive way
But honey, the sun is going to burn us all someday

Cool down, chill out 
Sit down and wait until it all falls down...

By Darko

Apologia do sono

O cão adormecido, um cigarro na mão
A rua lá fora e os papeis no chão
A boca dormente e a cabeça vazia
Os pés escondidos, uma cama fria

O relógio atrasado e o espelho partido
Um corpo ao lado sem fazer sentido
As unhas crescidas e o cabelo a cair
Apenas vontade de voltar a dormir...

By Darko

My heart

My heart looks like a mental facility
They're all crazy and lost somewhere
I hear them running like they're horses
How I wish they were not there....

By Darko

Wasted

Darling, we're wasted
The news were right about today's weather
Mum didn't even call to know if I'm ok
The streets are dusty and I guess I've changed

This room gets smaller everyday
My mouth tastes like shit since yesterday
I'm scared to notice I'm a little too much like you
And if that's true I've one more ghost to runaway from

Help me find a way out of your heart
Maybe I just like to fall apart

I wish I was Clyde
But you're not Bonnie either
Being perfect always pissed us off
Still it's not right to be the damn opposite

I feel like I'm losing all my brightness
There's no light left to chase inside of me
God, is this what having no money makes me think about?
Love's meaningless when we can't just spoil ourselves

Help me find a way out of your heart
Maybe I just like to fall apart

If Lana's a star and Frodo is gay
I'm sure I'll go far and I'll find a way
To make myself proud for the both of us
To fool the whole world and get an A plus
Amy just died and I am still here
I find no drug that can erase the fear
Of being no-one and worthless as hell
Of being a joke for you to tell

Help me find a way out of your heart
Maybe I just like to fall apart 

By Darko

Ficar

Outrora achei que sorrir era ser jovem
Embora ser jovem fosse querer mandar no mundo
Mandar no mundo tornou-se então redutor
Porque ninguém quer ser dono de nada

Houve alturas em que dançar me fazia esquecer
Bebia apenas para me recordar que não sei
Não saber foi sempre a melhor coisa que tive
Até descobrir que ninguém se pode esconder aí

Era encantador sentir-me mais que alguém
Porque alguém não significava muito para mim
Nesse momento despertei os sentidos
E constatei que há tanto por explicar

Agora começo a deslindar o passado
Esse que me condiciona o futuro
Amanhã é simplesmente aborrecido
De hoje nem vale a pena falar

Há momentos em que mordo a vida
Para que ela me possa largar da mão
Quero magoar-me para lamber a ferida
Grande puta que eu não te sei fechar

Não há espelho que me mostre a saída
Mesmo sabendo não ter pedido para entrar
A cabeça pregou-me outra partida
No meu coração ninguém sabe ou quer ficar...

By Darko

That

Sometimes it feels good to make you feel bad
It's a trick played by the monsters in my head
Some would say I'm in serious need of therapy
It's my stupid way of showing I want you near me

You know how I hate that
you know how i fear that
we'll always regret that.

By Darko

Fantasmas

Ultimamente acordo cansado. O calor que se manifesta em redor do meu corpo é cortante e opressivo. Os alimentos que tento ingerir parecem-me contaminados com o sabor dos humanos. Maquilho-me de calma enquanto afago a criança que dentro de mim implora para que lhe expliquem o verdadeiro sentido das coisas. A verdade é que eu não sei sequer o que é verdadeiro. A única coisa que poderia garantir seria a que provavelmente mais me desacreditaria. Será melhor calar-me e deixar-me engolir por cada um destes fantasmas descontrolados que me rasgam e me mordem e me invadem a alma assustada. Talvez um dia a possam encontrar sentada mesmo ao lado do que é verdadeiro, nesses sítios que nunca saberemos existir. Os fantasmas existem...

By darko

Vago e vazio

Encontro-me perdido naquele segundo vago e vazio
Onde nada é o mais concreto que posso obter de mim mesmo
Espero sem sentido que mude o amargo e o frio
De todas as ruas onde me escondo sem qualquer pudor de ser feliz

Acordo em mim as saudades do que outrora sonhei
Quando sonhar ainda era plausível e o sonho quase credível
Memórias do tempo em que aprisionava no olhar um brilho incandescente
De quem crê em coisas que nunca serão coisas de gente

Agora apenas encaro as desprezíveis sobras do que fui
Com mágoa, rancor e todas aquelas coisas feias que nunca vi no meu mundo
Mas o meu mundo não existe e eu não sou dono de nada
Nem do segundo em que acreditei ser possível seguir outra estrada

By Darko

Mom

My feet are dead and I might want to cry
I better light another cigarette
Darling, surprise me with a really good lie
One of those you know you'll always regret

It's amazing how I lost my charm
It's even funnier to believe I've ever had some
It's in the dark that I feel warm
Where I avoid watching what's about to come

Mom, I'm fucking scared of being alive...

By Darko

The words you'll never say

December sleeps in my hand

I will try to keep it warm

We'll both hide under my bed

to make sure we're not alone

It's not cruel to be alive

when death seems so damn boring

So we'll try to spend some time

playing games with no rules

Let me be the master of the fucking obvious

The world knows how much I hate surprises

It's not fair to expose me this much

to this bloody place until the sun rises...

I can't hear a single sound

It seems nobody wants to be around

They might have important things to do

Like forgetting about me and you

So we'll keep on being sorry for ourselves

It's fun to watch somebody like us

I guess we'd give a pretty entertaining show

Maybe too good for this world to know

Let me be the master of the fucking obvious

The world knows how much I hate surprises

It's not fair to expose me this much

to this bloody place until the sun rises...

There's a fat man saying "hello"

It's fucking Santa in the snow

let me burn who's on my way

I'm not a fan of this stupid day

Everything I wanted you to give

it's impossible to pay

I'm sorry if I don't believe

the words you'll never say

the words you'll never say...

Let me be the master of the fucking obvious

The world knows how much I hate surprises

It's not fair to expose me this much

to this bloody place until the sun rises...

By Darko